Bear with me - this isn’t just another #10yearchallenge.
I came across some photographs from back when I was at the height of the depression, social anxiety disorder and agoraphobia I experience in my mid 20's and early 30's. So this photograph on the left is over 10 years ago... back in 2005 when I was 32.
When I see this photo I remember...
I remember how I felt. How I lived. Specifically, I remember seeking approval from those around me. I remember wishing I didn't care what they thought of me, but I did. I remember praying desperately and daily, asking God to help me not seek approval from any person.
I heard criticism and then took ownership of it. I saw myself as ugly, fat, lazy, emotional, scared.... Those are just some of the words I recall that were used to describe me by the person who was supposed to love me.
As well, my stomach fat was pinched and I was called some names I won’t mention.
Slowly and surely, I became those things.
I laid in bed many days because I couldn't bear to face anyone or anything. I avoided people. I avoided situations. I was NOT living life thriving whatsoever. I was merely surviving.
I saw myself through eyes of rejection and hurt. I did not know the truth. I didn’t know who MY TRUE SELF was.
NO MORE!! ...and I haven’t felt that way for over a decade.
Now, and for the past many years, my desire and my mission in life has been to share the truth, hoping to help set others free by helping them to renew their mind with the truth of who they really are.
I know what it feels like to live in that turmoil of living my false self and then being able to get out of that and to live FULLY in my TRUE SELF.
I want others to know so that they, too, can find their true identity and live that out, rather than continue living in the false self they’ve been living in.
What is that truth?
You are NOT what/who others say you are.
You are what/who God says you are and whether you choose to believe it or not doesn't change the fact that it's true.
If you choose not to believe it, which you have a right to do of course, then that just means that you (unfortunately) don’t get to experience living in your true self form.
Who is your true self?
You are a beautiful radiator of light, shining like stars in the sky. Victorious and called. Designed to do good things. You are chosen by God to live this out – and anyone is capable. You just have to accept this for yourself, and learn how to see yourself how God sees you.
Just as anyone can be blinded by self-loathing, accusation, desperation and shame... ANYONE can open their eyes and be awakened to the truth.
So you have a decision – continue surviving life in the negative state allowing and accepting others to decide who/what you are and having others control your destiny....or learn how to thrive in life - and step into His spotlight and radiate like you were created to do.
You decide, and then I promise you this – God will reveal and help you step into your new life and your new identity... your true self living in your divine design - and then into your destiny and influence. 🌷